Am I Actually Autistic? The Audiobook is here.
Listen now: The audiobook edition is out now. It's a cultural guide for late-diagnosed and questioning Autistics.
Finding out you’re autistic later in life rarely feels neat or tidy. For many of us, it comes with identity shock—the sudden disorientation of realizing your struggles finally make sense, while also doubting whether you “count.”
Maybe you’ve been told you have “all the traits” but not enough childhood evidence. Maybe you walked out of an assessment with a “no,” or a diagnosis that still doesn’t feel real. Maybe you’ve wondered if you’re taking up space that doesn’t belong to you.
That’s the problem that my book Am I Actually Autistic? was written to address. And it’s now available in audio. I recorded it over the last month during our summer hiatus. I wanted it to feel less like reading a book and more like hanging out with me for a few hours of storytelling, reflection, and practical tools all woven together.
Am I Actually Autistic? is a guide through that in-between. It reframes autism not as a defect to confirm or rule out, but as a culture you can claim. It gives you a home assessment process that puts the power back in your hands—screening traits, mapping your history, and seeking peer validation instead of gatekeeping. And it makes space for the emotional side: grief, imposter syndrome, the shock of realizing your life has always been autistic even if nobody named it.
What the Book Offers
Instead of handing your identity over to a gatekeeper, Am I Actually Autistic? gives you tools to take it back:
Identity shock, explained: why late discovery feels like culture shock, and how to process it.
A home assessment path: using self-report tools, personal history, and reflection—without internalizing medical bias.
Peer validation: why recognition from other autistic people matters more than a clinical checklist.
Belonging as culture: autism reframed not as a defect, but as a community you’ve always been part of.
Living aligned: sensory regulation, low-demand living, special interests as self-care, and redesigning life around your neurology.
Who This Book Is For
Adults who suspect they’re autistic but don’t trust their instincts.
People who received a diagnosis but can’t shake the feeling of being an imposter.
Anyone exhausted by the inconsistent, biased, and gatekept diagnostic process.
Those who feel caught between “maybe” and “probably,” waiting for someone else to decide.
I know how frustrating the diagnosis process can be—slow, biased, inconsistent, and often dismissive. This book doesn’t erase those challenges, but it offers another path forward. A way to stop waiting for an outside stamp of approval and start building a life that fits.
That’s identity shock: when the label lands, or doesn’t, and your whole sense of self is upended. You know something has shifted, but you don’t yet know where you stand.
Exclusive Early Access
For the next month—while we’re on hiatus—I’m releasing the audiobook early and exclusively to paying supporters here on Substack. If you’ve been sitting in that space of doubt or identity shock, this is your chance to hear the whole book now. Think of it as a private listen-in: a few hours of stories, research, and practical steps designed to help you stop waiting for permission and start living as if you already belong.
